“I will permit no man to narrow and degrade my soul by making me hate him.” -Carrie Jones, Need

“I will permit no man to narrow and degrade my soul by making me hate him.”

-Carrie Jones, Need

This quote is actually quite important to me. I have a really bad temper problem and it’s very easy for me to dislike someone. It’s like a switch in my head- one minute you and I could be laughing and joking and the next I could be staring you down, debating whether it’s worth being your friend or not. They (the friend) could just say or do something so little and that is honestly all it takes.

I have family issues. It’s not something I’m going to go into detail about, though. Basically, it involved my cousin and other family members and for a while everything was okay. Each side of the family hated the other but my cousin and I had this mutuality kind of thing going on. For me, I had wanted to be civil and not be a dramatic high school girl, for her, I don’t know. Maybe she was just tired of hating me? In either scenario, the feud came back up and started again. I hated her for years upon years upon years and anymore I sit and think, is she really worth all my energy? Why did I allow her to let me sink so far into the tar pit of hatred that I started losing the happy side of me?

And what about the people I don’t care for in my lab? Are they worth the frustration, the losing my mind, and the energy it takes to try to calm down? Why should I let people get to me in such a way that it’s making me depressed, feel worthless, and to make me want to crawl in a hole and stay away from everyone. Why?

My point is that we shouldn’t let the stupid little things get to us. I will admit that no matter how many times I tell myself this, I will always let them get to me. Anyway, back to my point. We shouldn’t give people the power to let them make us feel crappy, worthless, frustrated, and overall sad. We should give people the power to help lift our spirits.